Lazy sunday.

Joe is procrastinating mowing the yard. I don't blame him, the AC has been working overtime. I am sure it is a scorcher outside.

We are all hanging out in the living room. I am waiting for my ipad to boot up so i can read my book about a crazy woman in an institution. Syd  is on her phone, probably with her girlfriend, and joe is watching a movie.

It is a shoot em up movie. A stand off between 2 men, neither wants to die. It makes me wonder why people are afraid to die. It is fear of the unknown. You can't tell me this world is all that great.

Maybe i should find some x and see what it feels like for everything to feel amazing.

I already know what it feels like for everything to feel like nothing.

I am a disposable person

I know that i take chances on people. I root for the underdog. I get disappointed a lot. I feel taken advantage of, used, and then people trash me as they walk away.

I like to give people chances. Someone gave me a chance.

My emotions are all over the place again.

Fully staffed

"I used to walk into a room and wonder if people liked me.....now i look around and wonder if i like them"

I now know what this means.

I went to joe's parent's house this week. His step mom isn't very warm. I suppose i am not very open.

I felt as though i was sleeping with the enemy. Mandy goes and sees them even when she doesn't have sydni.

As with everything that has to do with mandy, she feels the need to compete. I am not sure what she thinks the prize is or if she has noticed that i am no longer in the race.

I used to try so hard, wanting people to like me. I know joe really wanted us to get along.

I am not currently accepting applications for people to hurt and disappoint me. I believe i am fully staffed.

New shoes feel good

Thank goodness today starts a 10 day vacation.

I am 100% on my new medication today. Instead of 6 pills and 3 vitamins. I take 1 to 2 pills and 5 vitamins. Apparently being vitamin d deficient will make you crazy.

Yesterday was interesting. I felt as if my i was in one of my employees shoe's. I had to go in and do a formal discussion on a program that my people just can't seem to get right.

My assistant was upset that his freight wasn't worked. I took all of my paperwork and dumped it in his lap, had a breakdown, and went to grooming to have my cry.

The deal has been that i do the operational stuff and he does the floor stuff. I gave him the schedule, store use order, and left all of the purchase orders to be keyed. I left the out of date and stolen to be keyed and the items that seem to sit around forever with no tags.

I then sent an email last night that success, opportunities, and conversion stories need to be sent to different people. There is a list on the board. Sunday, do payroll and update the brand board in the back. Monday, cookie order. Tuesday, random price audit. Thursday, animal order...don't pencil whip it. Talk to all people who haven't sold a dog training class. If you have any questions call Eastham or Bien. I will go put up freight.

Honestly, i think it is the best thing that could've happened. I get to take off 10 days. I don't help out on the salesfloor, okay, here is all of the stuff that needs to be done daily. You want it, great. See you week after next, let me know how it all works out.

Don't forget, no one went to get fives or vegetables for the animals.