I had my pity party last night. Joe was so incredibly sweet, he just held me while i cried.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

Then i woke up this morning and gave it to God.

I started to get back into my negative self talk habit. I don't want to be that person again. It took years for me to get out of that habit.

I know that the decision to exclude me has nothing to do with me and everything to do with them. I cannot fathom having a big event in your life and not wanting to celebrate with friends and family.

I feel as though i made my feelings clear. The next move is his. I am not going to beg people to be a part of my life and love me anymore.