Today is my mother's birthday.
I spent so many years dreading the day, trying to find the perfect gift. Wanting so hard to please my mother which now I know that was an impossible task. Thinking that somehow it would crack her cold, hard exterior. Maybe I would know what it would be like to be accepted.
Last year I was thankful that I didn't have to see the look of disappointment on her face. I didn't have to try and figure out who was coming to the party.
This year I have just been filled with sadness. It is hard when you feel as though you have no place in this world. Which pretty much sums up how I have felt my entire life.
You have a place in this world.....and you are an important person in it. I wish I lived closer to you. I would love to sit and have long talks and just have the wonderful opportunity to know you better. I've always admired so many things about you. You are a beautiful young woman with so much to give!
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