I used to have such abandonment issues that I wanted someone to promise they would never leave. Now I don't need someone to promise they won't leave I need the security of someone who will stay until they are unable or unwilling to treat me right.
It is amazing how age changes your idea of security.
I really thought that losing a parent would send me off balance, making me feel as if I am alone in the world. It has made me realize that I lost my mother a long time ago.
The night my mother died I kept expecting her to come and see me. I asked my best friend if she had experienced the same thing. She said yes but it was about 8 months after she died.
I guess I will be waiting.
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