10. We have stuffed our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have lost the ability to feel or express our feelings because it hurts so much; (DENIAL)
11. We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem;
12. We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment and will do anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to experience painful abandonment feelings which would repeat feelings of our childhoods with preoccupied people who were unable to be there emotionally for us;
13. Alcoholism is a family disease and we became para-alcoholics and took on the characteristics of that disease even though we may not have picked up the drinking escape;
14. ACA's, co-dependents, ACOA's are reactors rather than actors.
10) i have learned to anesthetize my feelings with a combination of food, alcohol, relationships, things, and anything else that i thought would work
11) I just myself very harshly. It always seems to amaze my bosses when they see my self review and i have basically checked needs improvement on every box.
12)I pick people based on my perception of whether they will abandon me or not. I was with someone once and told a friend, that i knew he would never leave me. He broke up with me and then spent the next decade telling everyone that i was the one. He still sniffs around every once in a while. The minute i think someone is going to abandon me, i put up the wall.
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14) I used to procrastinate so that i could be a reactor, letting situations define my actions. Now it just gives me anxiety and despise feeling like a victim after so many years of feeling helpless either because of my own decisions or someone elses.
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