karma

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

Karma scares the heck out of me. 

I spent too many years doing whatever i wanted not really caring about anyone other than myself and what my fickle heart wanted. 

I was very self destructive.  I am not sure if it was a self esteem issue or a self hatred deal.  I constantly was in situations that weren't healthy for me.  I continually set myself up for failure.  I had relationships that were destructive and toxic. 

Happiness scares me.  I am really sure that there is a huge part of me that doesn't believe that i deserve it.