the note

i can remember being in jr high and so wanting to connect with my mother

i have acted like an adult in most ways my entire life, but unfortunately i have lacked the communication skills of an adult, since most of the adults in my life didn't communicate well with me (my father not being included in that group). 

i wrote my mother a letter once trying to reach out to her.  Years later she showed me that note.  I was blown away when i saw that she had kept up, but then quickly deflated when she told me that she wasn't able to read most of it or at least didn't understand it.  I am still not sure if i should be flattered that she kept it, or if she just thought she had raised an idiot when she couldn't read it.